OT - creative (but isolated and severely depressed) Asperger adult at end of rope, seeks advice
I am at a point where I need some guidance. I have Asperger syndrome, but am functional enough to not quality for help, but too dysfunctional to pass job interviews. I had a job I could do, but it got outsourced (and frankly was killing me). I used to do remote tech support for 3 major retail office supply chains. Where I live, I have a stable house, but there are no jobs here. My main (and, stupidly on my part, only) backup plan failed (working with a friend on a Poser store). There are no creative people here, there are no gay or genderqueer people here. There are no real nerds here, only people who play video games. I have made many efforts to reach out as best I can, to no avail. The only social outlets are all online, and those do nothing for me (something I found out while working a job from home). My parents moved here when I was in college, so I do not know anyone that isn't family. I turned 34 less than a month ago, but still basically feel like a teenager/somewhere in my 20s (mentally I'm not, though). My family loves me, but they do not understand or know how to deal with what I have going on. My mother thinks it's simple for me to "just get a job", but even without all that I have going on, it's not an option here. I am at a loss for what to do, and would appreciate the advice of any adult working through severe social retardation (and that's what it is.. I am far, far behind where I should be on social skills, and I don't know that my brain is wired in a way that I can pick them up). What do I do? Everyone says to talk about it when you're depressed and considering your final options, but nobody actually ever wants to hear it, or has any good advice. Please help. I know I do not participate on here as much as I could (but I don't participate anywhere really, as I am stuck in my head most of the time, even when I don't want to be). I don't know what to do and nobody here knows what to do.