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This thread has been running for years and ppl know where to come back to. Is up to you guys what you do but until Daz’s official policy changes I’ll say what I’m allowed to in whatever commons thread I want to, especially this one.

OK, I realize I have contributed mainly to the goofy in here. If that isn’t as welcome as I thought, I am sorry.
On the Forums I am used to (Rendo) a long thread is one that goes on for more than one page.

If I don’t really complain that much, there are reasons for that.
Real life:
My mother lived with me for 4 years after my Dad died. The 4th year of that time I took an early retirement because she would cry when I left for work in the morning. Over that last year with her at home, her macular degeneration took the rest of her sight and then senile dementia took almost all the rest of her from me. I had to do something I had repeatedly told her I would never do. I put her in a nursing home.
When I visit her she sometimes knows who I am, sometimes not, She has become very dysphasic, so most of our conversations are one-sided. She says Mama, Daddy, and God a lot, rarely using them as anything other than substitutes for other words she cannot recall. She does the same thing with words that rhyme with “-ag”, such as rag, nag, bag, sag etc.
If I am there at mealtime, I help feed her with a spoon.
I long for the brief flashes of memory that she has from time to time. The only truly meaningful conversations we have are when I tell her I love her. She tells me she loves me too. One day not long ago, she said something she had not said in a very long time. She said it often when I was growing up, and it was said in a humorous way but she always meant every word. It was this:
When I told her, “I love you.Mama” she would say “I love you more.”
Not much huh? But it meant the world to me to hear it again.
I always cry after every visit.

I have diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, and clinical depression (big surprise, there, huh?) and take more medicine in a day than I used to take in a month 10 years ago.

So why don’t I complain more?
Firstly because I’m in a nursing home a lot, where I learned a valuable truth: There is always someone worse off than me.
And lastly, complaining doesn’t make me feel one damn bit better.
But being goofy does.

If you came along with me on this long journey of a post, thank you for your compassion and understanding. I do appreciate it.
Finally, this post is not to “put anyone in their place”. I can definitely relate to all that has been said in here, both heartfelt and lighthearted. And I do hope I have responded in an appropriate way when any of you have voiced real concerns.
Thanks.
John

I’m only going to repeat myself one last time. I complained because I needed to. I’m sorry it was taken as more than a major VENT just So I could Vent. It was not aimed at any user(s). But I will now bow out of this thread and do my needed Venting in private.

Jaderail - 02 November 2012 06:44 AM

I’m only going to repeat myself one last time. I complained because I needed to. I’m sorry it was taken as more than a major VENT just So I could Vent. It was not aimed at any user(s). But I will now bow out of this thread and do my needed Venting in private.

Please don’t, Jade. I’ve always seen you as the “heart” of this thread. It cannot be the same without you in it.

A change in title for (hopefully) a change in tone.

Jaderail - 02 November 2012 06:44 AM

I’m only going to repeat myself one last time. I complained because I needed to. I’m sorry it was taken as more than a major VENT just So I could Vent. It was not aimed at any user(s). But I will now bow out of this thread and do my needed Venting in private.

Jader, you said nothing wrong, and there is no reason for you to abandon this thread. You KNOW why I had a self-conscious response. I just explained it…........ Now you come back here and complain that complaints can get misinterpreted, spiraling in a web of self consciousness and more complaints about the complaint , which will make me happy that you returned to complain in the complaint thread

tjohn - 02 November 2012 07:05 AM

A change in title for (hopefully) a change in tone.

I like it.  It is always up to the one with first post to choose the thread title if the one assigned is not to their taste.

And Jade, I agree with what others are saying, Do come back and complain here.

Edited to add a complaint.  A month ago I tracked down and purchased a copy of Poser 8, becuse this new PC wouldn’t run Poser 6.

Now SM are offering Poser 9 for less money than I paid for Poser 8, and what is more it seems every other thread I check is mentioning it, so I can’t pretend I didn’t see the offer.

Grrrh, I can’t afford another version.  The only advantage I have with the P8 I bought is that it is a DVD, in a nice SM case with manual and all the other bumph SM put in their physical products.

I thank all of you for the understanding. Many of you know my whole life because I see no reason to hide it from others. Some of you are new friends and have not had the pleasure of my long winded posts about myself. I know that some go BULL CRAP and others go Darn. That does not bother me.

The fact I lost it 100% and then kept on throwing fuel on the fire does bother me. The Fact I vented on a topic other than what was really bothering me also makes me pause. I feel I have stepped over the line even when others tell me I have not. I must take a hard look at what I did and said. I have caused myself pain and I still believe others as well.

The Forums have become my way to escape my real life. When I use it to blindly lash out at what I see as freedom it is time for me take a step back and try to understand why. I’m not leaving DS, I’m not going to stop reading threads, not even this one. I’m just very sure I need time, and others here as well, for me to think hard and hopefully let this be a one time thing.

I am sorry. I do apologize. I still think a bit of reflection is needed. So I plan to let others heal as I try to heal myself and to be less involved on the Site for a while. I hope you understand.

Jeff.

Jaderail - 01 November 2012 10:10 PM

NONE COMPLAINT: Nice to see Wooly back and posting. Nuff said.

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii! Nice to see you too!

Complaint:

The back of the head texture being on the torso texture is a pain with both Generation 5 and 4. Its degraded due to size constraints, there are two sides of seams! I hope that when daz decides to make Generation 6 that they consider making the back of the head on the Face texture!!

and another troll wanders in, poor Cho these kids are a worry

Sigh.. RDNA wishlist finally empty after 3 months! And they said it would never happen!

Still 4 items in the Daz wishlist (2 squirrels, a V4 dress, and a jellyfish).

Up to 10 items in my Rendo wishlist, lots of steampunk stuff and some clothes, weapons that sort of thing.

Next Payday I’ll clear the Daz list, then it’ll be 2 more Paydays to clear the Rendo list.

Then I guess.. another external HD! This time at least a terabyte! 5 years ago I would have laughed my tail off if someone told me I’d need a bloody terabyte of storage.

Complaints: foot aches oddly, which apparently is typical, but it’s.. odd feeling. Non-complaint: no more physical therapy until the amputation wound heals, whoooo-peeeeee! Darn I was tired of all the tests!!!

Minor annoyance: Musicians Friend sending me “stuff on sale” emails when the stuff on sale is a pile of $3000 guitars! Cripes I can’t afford a $800 guitar!!! Gaahhhhh!

wendy♥catz - 02 November 2012 09:06 AM

and another troll wanders in, poor Cho these kids are a worry

Is that Li’l Jade in the background? Love it!

yep, frame from a video from another thread were I babified a few participants.
(inc me)

Say hello to my new avatar. That’s really me in my 1st Grade school picture (taken a few years ago). I just found this pic on my HD again recently. Now I know why this smiley seemed so familiar.
I am wearing a cowboy shirt (Yippie-Ki-YAY!, %#^*$!! ), and have posted it as my Photo if you’d like to see it larger.